Somedays Aren’t Yours At ALL

“Somedays aren’t yours at all,
They come and go
As if they’re someone else’s days
They come and leave you behind someone else’s face
And it’s harsher than yours
And colder than yours”

Regina Spektor
Soviet Kitsch


A path was made for her 

She thought of what led her to this moment 

Many times she made decisions blindly with no thought of what kind of ripple effect

These decisions would create in her future self

She didn’t care

She just wanted to feel

To be in the moment

Most days of her life

She walked with shoulders slouched

With an apprehensive chin 

Not completely hidden but not fully upright in her height

With Years

Memories, successes, travel, jumping in waterfalls, swimming in seas,

 Failures, wins, hard work, yes’s, no’s, What the fucks!!!! Hell Yes’s!!!

Can’t believe I am here! Can’t believe this is happening moments!



This concoction of experiences led her to a taller stance 

She felt invincible 

She felt secure 

She felt magic

She almost felt like she was leading the life she wanted

Everything she could imagine and dream of




Made a decision


One that affected me and the life I thought I was leading

A fool

I feel

Was I blind this whole time?

Did I make this up?

Was this all a dream?

Maybe I’m Alice?

I do feel small

I do feel large

Depending on the amount I take

I was pushed and shoved down a path

I was forced on it

To trip down it

You held a gun to my heart 

I never thought you would actually shoot

But when you did

It did not kill me, sometimes I wish it had

Instead it left a hole

A massive, open, gaping, oozing 


I’m slowly being sucked into it

I don’t want to be 

I want to be strong and pull myself out

I try everyday, every thought, every breath

To release

To let go

To forget


I don’t have to

Till it’s just another day

Just another path

Just another scar




IMG_1836Women’s March in DC

2017 has been a whirlwind so far, with finishing my first year of grad school and my first year as a lead teacher. Now currently teaching full time and in my second year of grad school. On top of that I am working online towards a certificate for early childhood to be an official lead teacher in the eyes of NY state.  I am also going through some personal life changes and taking every day one at a time.

And! Not to mention the awful disgustingness that is our president, I mean, #notmypresident. I am horrified by the state our country is in. I am scared for our planet and for the communities who have been struck by all the natural disasters occurring. I know its not long before everyone is effected by them, mother nature doesn’t care how much money you have.  Everyday something new is taken or is trying to be taken from the people that our most oppressed in our country, people of color, LGBTQ community , women, the poor, and people with disabilities. It is a time for everyone to wake up and do something, take a stand, give money, or time. White people especially need to take a stand for the injustices that happen to people of color everyday. I am growing and learning myself on what I can do to fight back.


I am grateful to work at a progressive arts based preschool in Brooklyn. At my school we do not shy away from what is happening in our country. The election affected many of our families and we wanted to provide a safe space for conversations to occur.  Many kids participated in the protests after the election. Myself and other coworkers joined one of the families at our school on a bus to the Women’s March in DC. We read books with powerful messages of strength and courage with people of different ethnicities and backgrounds. The day after the election a parent came in and read a book to the kids about Fannie Lou Hamer, a voting rights activist and civil rights leader.

Fannie Lou Hamer


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I  am also extremely lucky to be involved in a grad program exploring these topics. A program focused on connecting to our humanity through theatre and art. The Applied Theatre program at CUNY has opened my eyes to many things I did not know or maybe didn’t want to know about our world.

MA Applied Theatre

Through reading amazing books like Paulo Freire’s, Pedagogy of the Oppressed, to Beverly Daniel Tatum’s, Why Are All the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria: And Other Conversations About Race, I have explored and learned a lot. I am learning how to have critical discussions with my classmates and anyone about topics that in the past I would have shied away from.

Applied Theatre is what this world needs right now. It is another outlet to bridge these large gaps in our communities and to provide ways to cope and understand ourselves in this world. I was lucky enough to be apart of one of the days of the Racial Reconciliation workshop provided by the program and led by, Dr. Herukhuti, a playwright, poet, essayist, spiritual teacher, sexual healer, scholar, activist, social entrepreneur.

Dr. Herukhuti website:

It was a workshop I believe every person in this world needs to do. In the workshop I mapped out my history with race, when I discovered it, and my relationship to it. Being white, I never had to think about it because being white in this country gets you everywhere. I am privileged because of the color of my skin. Where I grew up I was always mirrored back to myself. I was fortunate enough to have been raised in a family that loved humanity. I was taught and shown to treat others with respect, how you would like to be treated, regardless of a person’s race, color, background, or sexuality. I was told and shown through my parents that everyone deserved equal rights in this country/world.

 I will forever strive to be a fighter of oppression. I may not be perfect or fully understand what that means yet, but through this program and my own research I hope I can be of service and not be part of the problem.

Fresh Ground Pepper’s BRB Retreat 2015

I was recently apart of an incredible artist retreat at Little Pond in beautiful Bethlehem Pennsylvania this August. The retreat was with the incomparable NYC company, Fresh Ground Pepper.

I love their motto:

“If you can’t be famous be emerging!”

Click here for more info on BRB and Fresh Ground Pepper:

I worked on a new play called, Hot Air Balloon Girl. Hot Air Balloon Girl is about a young girl named Pistol, who is traveling the world in a Hot Air Balloon trying to catch up with her father. Pistol gets in some trouble and meets some unexpected companions along the way.

On the retreat I was able to enjoy the outdoors and had time to get some solid writing done. I also worked closely with the other amazing artists on the retreat and was able to get feedback on my writing and they helped me with some character improv for the show!

Here are some pictures from the retreat and from my rehearsal time